Halsey Opens Up on Tumblr About ‘Hate’ From Fans: ‘I Regret Coming Back’

Halsey is more vulnerable than ever with her art, as seen in her most recent single “Lucky,” but the superstar is struggling with the backlash she’s receiving from people claiming to be their fans.

The singer took to Tumblr this week to share a lengthy post about how she’s been feeling. “My own fans are hands down meaner to me than any other people on the planet,” they wrote. “Not speaking for all of you, of course. But it used to be just a minority that were awful to me and now it seems like a majority have only stuck around to chime in occasionally with their opinion of how much they hate me or how awful I am. it’s hard to want to engage in a space that is completely devoid of any kindness, sympathy, patience; or to be honest human decency. Especially after years of hiding from the interactions for fear that this EXACT thing would happen. I don’t know man. I almost lost my life. I am not gonna do anything that doesn’t make me happy anymore. I can’t spiritually afford it.”

Halsey concluded by noting, “When I got sick all I could think about was getting better so I could come back and be a part of THIS again, but I don’t even know what *this* is anymore and I want to crawl in a hole and I regret coming back.”

See the post here.

“I shaved my head four times because I wanted to/ And then I did it one more time ’cause I got sick,” Halsey sings on “Lucky,” which also interpolates Britney Spears’ hit of the same name as well as Monica’s 1998 Billboard Hot 100-topper “Angel of Mine.” “I left the doctor’s office full of tears/ Became a single mom at my premiere/ And I told everybody I was fine for a whole damn year/ And that’s the biggest lie of my career.” 

In June, the musician revealed she’d been diagnosed with Lupus and a rare T-cell disorder two years prior. Last year, she split from partner Alev Aydin, with whom she shares 3-year-old son Ender. 

In a follow-up post, Halsey added that they’re on the way to a PET scan. “I’m a person. Not a character in a music video,” she wrote.